I am a bit late today with FSF. But better late then never! The boys had school off and we got to watch one of Sawyers best friends so it was a fun albeit busy day. We had a gorgeous day at Jardin Luxembourg followed by gelato at Xavier’s (Sawyers buddy) favorite place. It was a funny day because it was just gorgeous and we all had a great time but I had a rock in my stomach the entire time. You see I have come to REALLY love Paris. Like, never want to leave and dread our moving, love. I am ridiculously excited for Sydney and for my year near our family don’t get me wrong, I am just so in love with this city, which is dangerous for a person in my situation. I have been watching my lovely friend Disney be an amazing foster mother over the last few months and seen her struggle with the wanting to throw your whole entire heart into it but at the same time knowing in the back of your mind there is a large possibility you are in for HUGE heart break. On a MUCH lesser scale and far more insignificant I feel like this every time we move. You cannot let your heart get attached to a place, no setting down any sort of roots because in two-three years its all going to get ripped up. Waves of panic, of make every second count, live life to the fullest etc can become overwhelming at times. Then I thought about how I felt the exact same way a few months ago with my cuties. “They’re growing up so fast, make it count!” “Be the best mom ever while you can!” “Savor that smile and that hug someday they won’t want to hug you”. I almost made myself sick about it. Finally I realized the best way I can ACTUALLY savor the moment is to just relax and enjoy it. Yup, life goes by fast. Sitting there saying “savor savor savor” doesn’t make it slow down it just gives me a tummy ache and stiff shoulders. Along with relaxing I have been focusing on how grateful I am. Grateful for this time in this incredible city. Grateful for my darling children and the joy they bring me. Grateful to wonderful family and friends. I dunno maybe its thinking about the super fun holiday in November coming up or THIS video I watched but noticing how grateful I am sure makes me happy. On that note of course I had to include some pics from our trip to the park, though I am saving the ones I love for my next weeks installment of ordinary extraordinary. Sure grateful to my parents for buying my my first nice camera for graduation so I could capture days like today!